Posted on March 2, 2022

Sitting here at 1:30 in the morning, questioning the decisions I make…picking up a new dog on Saturday, even though I promised myself there would be no more. And why this one? There truly is no reasonable answer. He was slated for euthanasia, after biting both his owners in the face. He is a 4 year old working line GSD, so likely has way more go than whoa. I am 60 years old and dream of having more whoa than go. Makes no sense, not even to me. But alas, it appears to be happening anyways. I have serious reservations about bringing this guy into my world, because he WILL rock my boat, but it was his only option, other than an early demise. I suppose it may be because I have learned the value of second chances. Both by receiving them, and by giving them. And I do love a redemption story. Whether or not that is possible in this case, I have no idea, but there is no way to know without trying. I have felt this way many, many times before. Taking dogs others deem unmanageable, and having to try to figure out what works, what doesn’t, with an eye on surviving the journey. It causes angst in my life, so why a person doesn’t stop, is a bit beyond me. I guess it may be because in return, these “ruff” dogs have given me insight into being a more understanding, patient, fearless, open minded and compassionate human, and to never give up, no matter how rocky the road. Collectively, they have shown me time and again, that all things are possible. The new guy could show me it is perfectly possible for him to kick my ass, or he may show me that having clear, fair, boundaries, rules and limitations, a relationship based on mutual trust and respect, and having his needs fulfilled are the key to unlocking his full potential. So am off on this new adventure, with a “dangerous” dog I have never met. Of all the trainers contacted to take this dog on, not one would. I understand that, a lot. Fear robs us of the opportunity to really live and learn, far too often. So, at the end of the day, I still have some things to learn, and this dog will be the perfect teacher. They always have been…and my life has been enriched by each and every one of them. As a friend of mine once told me, “You don’t always get the dog you want, but you always get the dog you need”. I guess I have my answer, I need this dog.